Just Embarassing

It is just embarrassing how certain folks act – and they represent are supposed to be people who represent the masses…  I really can’t stomach to much of the news and Mary is always telling me that I need to pay attention – but sometimes the reporters are spinning things and they are not much better.  It seems to be an epidemic.  I like simple.  I like hard working.  I am not so naive that I believe shit never happened before – we just didn’t put it out there and we showed respect for people and hopefully we righted wrongs…  Who knows.  All I know is this is a mess.  A really, really big one that is just draining…

It is the weekend though.  I am going to think positively…  Hopefully take the kayak out and spend some time paddling along.  There is a lot of good in the world – in people – I need to focus on that.  We need to help each other and we need to be kind and support one another.  Just be the change you want to see…

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Pshew…

Well we have a new Mr. and Mrs. in the family…  Seems like we planned forever and then poof – it was over.

All the stars aligned and all five kids and their others were home.  We had a lot of fun and a lot of activity, but we just couldn’t slow time down…  Most importantly Garratt and Corey had a wonderful time.  We made it through the rain and inebriated guests – who were unfortunately were my relatives…  Had a few comments that should not have been made, but overall we looked past all that and we all had a good time.  Some things never change and you can’t let it get you down.  We had so much fun and we are so proud of all of our kids and just are so blessed to have their love and support.  We took so many pictures…  I can’t wait to get the professional ones back.  The photographer put some up on her website –  http://www.britjaye.com/blog/springfieldcountryclubwedding

So, the day the Denver folks were coming in, it was 90+ outside and our air conditioner broke.  Our friend came and fixed it – and by fix, I mean gave it life support.  So, now that we are finishing paying for the wedding, we get to pay for a new furnace and air conditioning unit.  I will be working until I am 90…   Really can’t complain, both are original to the house, which is 30 years.

I do miss having everyone around though…  We are truly blessed.

 

Calling for good mojo…

The wedding is within site and the army doesn’t know if Morgan can come home or not.  For some reason her command said it would be a done deal – especially since it was a holiday weekend – but now it had to be run up the chain…  in Arizona.  I am still holding good thoughts.  Hard to do, but I am trying…  In November she will leave for at least a year to go overseas – it would be nice for them to allow her to come home.  Just sayin…

It is getting so close.  All of the last minute things – the things that go wrong and dealing with it all.  Learned my lesson the hard way on ordering the flower girl dresses online from this one company – at some point you just have to realize it is money that is gone.  Start over.  Oh well…  So excited for them though…  We still need shoes…  Accessories…  Spanx (since we are not going to lose weight from the wine we consume from the stress…) Oh, and we haven’t tried the dresses on since we bought them…

We are dropping our youngest off for her final year in college this weekend.  She is graduating a year early…  Taking a “gap” year to volunteer and work – then she is taking the LSAT…  Two dogs were skunked a couple weeks back – we now walk them before we feed them and walk them – it is too early for wine…  It has been busy – but it is all good – we just want Morgan to be home with the other four.  Calling for good mojo…  Come on army!

Remote Office

Found my remote working site…

Paddling…

I can’t sleep at night.  Multiple things keep me up.  Usually, I wake up with a hot flash, night sweat – whatever the hell you want to call it.  But then, my mind races, wanders, begins to think about things.  One of the kids, money (or lack of it), how will we ever retire, work, the 20,000 things that need done around the house, sex, or the fact that my body is so blazin hot and sweaty that I can barely stand it.  As soon as it starts, I try to keep myself calm and tell myself to not think about anything.  Ha ha, cause the first thing I do is start to think about something.  I typically then start to read on my tablet.  Which is fine, but then I get into the book and it just prolongs my efforts to return to sleep.  Then I return to slumber for another short while and then it returns.  This time though, I have to pee too.  So, I do try to ignore that urge, but realize that isn’t going to go away, so I get up, take care of business, turn the fan on and wait for the sweats to subside.  Open the tablet to stop my mind from racing.  When Mary takes the dogs downstairs at 5, I am usually so ready to remain sleeping.  Just figures that is how things happen.  Our children just think we are so old for going to bed at 9:30 PM…  By the time we put clothes away from the laundry we do (no it doesn’t sit in the laundry basket) and get the dogs settled and brush teeth, etc.  It is usually at least 10.  I am quick to fall asleep after reading a bit, before my first flash hits me – some nights it doesn’t appear until 2:00 AM…  People tell me this lasts for years.  Hell, the bags under my eyes should have permanent residence by then…

So, on another front, we bought our own kayaks and had our maiden voyage last weekend.  I don’t know how long we will be able to hoist them on top of the car – but for now we are good.  I love the peacefulness you feel when you are out paddling.  I guess I can use that analogy in life.  I just need to keep paddling along.

A lot Goes In

A lot goes into the planning of the big day.  Funny, my parent’s engagement picture just came up on my digital frame.  That in and of itself is something when they took the photo in 1954, they couldn’t even fathom.  Their wedding reception was held on a snowy day in November at an Elks hall and there wasn’t a fancy sit down dinner, two photographers, a choice of chair covers and flowers.  They had a family member spin 45s and a friend served drinks.  Last weekend we went for a food tasting at the venue.  We were deciding between the chicken and the steak.  Then we decided to go with the chicken or the the steak…   It was very tasty.  We were talking through the champaign toast and the prices of the bottles.  We went from just the bride and groom and family – tacky in my mind.  Then switched  to everyone – and then the bride and groom said – yeah we don’t like champaign much.  It hit us – toast with the drink you have then…  She is going with simple greens for most of her flowers – eucalyptus and some flower I can’t pronounce.  So many choices and decisions – and it all adds up.  It is hard to not say, don’t worry about that – just go ahead and do it.  Calmer heads need to prevail and go back and re-evaluate.  All of this prep for 5 hours of celebration.  Hard to believe.  I know it will be beautiful.

Then.  We have to find dresses for ourselves.  What an adventure that will be.  I know we are background material – but we need to look decent.   I know it is a very long shot for all five kids to be able to be there with the one in the military – but right now there is a shot in her training schedule.  The granddaughters are practicing being “flowers”.  I am just hoping they don’t get stage freight…  I think I will channel my Mother – or at least 1954…

Life Marches On…

I have no clue where the time goes, but it goes so quickly.  Work for both of us has been a stressful mess.  I have always feared losing my job due to cuts of some kind.  I am realizing that if it happens I will deal with it and then move on.  No need to stress about what you can’t control.  Easier said than done…

We have been planning for a wedding in September.  Our son and his girlfriend moved her from California to Chicago – driving the two cats in the car.  Our daughter has been to university in South Korea and has returned, we still facetime the Granddaughters many times during the week – but our appeal on the ipad comes and goes in spurts.  And, our baby turned 20 today.  Life marches on.

We have decided to begin preparing to sell our house in a couple of years.  The first part of that is starting to purge the unneeded stuff and things we have moved into the crawl space.  That is going to take some time.  While the daughter has moved all of  her stuff from the basement – we still have a lot of stuff down there.  We have started on the top floor and have totally redone two of the kid’s bedrooms.  They are now “grown up”, more subtle and pretty much purged of unneeded things.  We need to do the same throughout the house.  We then need to rennovate our bathroom and kitchen – replace the carpet and then get it ready to stage.  That makes me tired just writing it.

Life marches on…