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Paddling…

I can’t sleep at night.  Multiple things keep me up.  Usually, I wake up with a hot flash, night sweat – whatever the hell you want to call it.  But then, my mind races, wanders, begins to think about things.  One of the kids, money (or lack of it), how will we ever retire, work, the 20,000 things that need done around the house, sex, or the fact that my body is so blazin hot and sweaty that I can barely stand it.  As soon as it starts, I try to keep myself calm and tell myself to not think about anything.  Ha ha, cause the first thing I do is start to think about something.  I typically then start to read on my tablet.  Which is fine, but then I get into the book and it just prolongs my efforts to return to sleep.  Then I return to slumber for another short while and then it returns.  This time though, I have to pee too.  So, I do try to ignore that urge, but realize that isn’t going to go away, so I get up, take care of business, turn the fan on and wait for the sweats to subside.  Open the tablet to stop my mind from racing.  When Mary takes the dogs downstairs at 5, I am usually so ready to remain sleeping.  Just figures that is how things happen.  Our children just think we are so old for going to bed at 9:30 PM…  By the time we put clothes away from the laundry we do (no it doesn’t sit in the laundry basket) and get the dogs settled and brush teeth, etc.  It is usually at least 10.  I am quick to fall asleep after reading a bit, before my first flash hits me – some nights it doesn’t appear until 2:00 AM…  People tell me this lasts for years.  Hell, the bags under my eyes should have permanent residence by then…

So, on another front, we bought our own kayaks and had our maiden voyage last weekend.  I don’t know how long we will be able to hoist them on top of the car – but for now we are good.  I love the peacefulness you feel when you are out paddling.  I guess I can use that analogy in life.  I just need to keep paddling along.

A lot Goes In

A lot goes into the planning of the big day.  Funny, my parent’s engagement picture just came up on my digital frame.  That in and of itself is something when they took the photo in 1954, they couldn’t even fathom.  Their wedding reception was held on a snowy day in November at an Elks hall and there wasn’t a fancy sit down dinner, two photographers, a choice of chair covers and flowers.  They had a family member spin 45s and a friend served drinks.  Last weekend we went for a food tasting at the venue.  We were deciding between the chicken and the steak.  Then we decided to go with the chicken or the the steak…   It was very tasty.  We were talking through the champaign toast and the prices of the bottles.  We went from just the bride and groom and family – tacky in my mind.  Then switched  to everyone – and then the bride and groom said – yeah we don’t like champaign much.  It hit us – toast with the drink you have then…  She is going with simple greens for most of her flowers – eucalyptus and some flower I can’t pronounce.  So many choices and decisions – and it all adds up.  It is hard to not say, don’t worry about that – just go ahead and do it.  Calmer heads need to prevail and go back and re-evaluate.  All of this prep for 5 hours of celebration.  Hard to believe.  I know it will be beautiful.

Then.  We have to find dresses for ourselves.  What an adventure that will be.  I know we are background material – but we need to look decent.   I know it is a very long shot for all five kids to be able to be there with the one in the military – but right now there is a shot in her training schedule.  The granddaughters are practicing being “flowers”.  I am just hoping they don’t get stage freight…  I think I will channel my Mother – or at least 1954…

I have no clue where the time goes, but it goes so quickly.  Work for both of us has been a stressful mess.  I have always feared losing my job due to cuts of some kind.  I am realizing that if it happens I will deal with it and then move on.  No need to stress about what you can’t control.  Easier said than done…

We have been planning for a wedding in September.  Our son and his girlfriend moved her from California to Chicago – driving the two cats in the car.  Our daughter has been to university in South Korea and has returned, we still facetime the Granddaughters many times during the week – but our appeal on the ipad comes and goes in spurts.  And, our baby turned 20 today.  Life marches on.

We have decided to begin preparing to sell our house in a couple of years.  The first part of that is starting to purge the unneeded stuff and things we have moved into the crawl space.  That is going to take some time.  While the daughter has moved all of  her stuff from the basement – we still have a lot of stuff down there.  We have started on the top floor and have totally redone two of the kid’s bedrooms.  They are now “grown up”, more subtle and pretty much purged of unneeded things.  We need to do the same throughout the house.  We then need to rennovate our bathroom and kitchen – replace the carpet and then get it ready to stage.  That makes me tired just writing it.

Life marches on…

Friday…

left work early to drive to the college town for mom’s weekend.  We are having a beverage while waiting for the third mom.   Never gets old watching people when three of us show up for one kid…

We went wedding dress shopping last weekend.  I didn’t even tear up. I am saving it for the big day…  life is passing by so quickly!

Life…

Life continues to roll on.  Chaos and drama continue, along with weird weather ( freezing one day, warm the next)…  Luckily our chaos and drama are not life altering – but the overall picture – good grief!  It is hard to follow the news.  Which I don’t really well, but I know I should.  I am so happy it is Friday that is for sure.

This cuteness brightens my every day…

We did get to move into a new building for work.  My team has a nice space and the building has great ammenities.

And… this is my screensaver…  I can dream about being here with the love of my life…

The older I get, the faster time seems to go.  We are rounding the end of January and I don’t know how we got here.  We finally visited California.  Got to see what all the fuss was about.  The army gal picked us up in Oakland and we drove to see our son and girlfriend in Santa Rosa.  We got a tour of a winery from her roommate who is a wine master…  and, we got to see the Shultz museum.  In monterey we stayed on cannery row and drove through pebble beach.  We packed a lot into five days.

Time can just slow down a bit so it can be savored!  We are in shorts one day and parkas the next!   It all makes an interesting mix.